I don't know how to be me

Alltså. Jag vet inte riktigt. Men oj, vad söt ändå. But... It's like I don't know how to be me in situations like this. I want too much, but I can't seem to express myself and show it, or it comes out wrong. I'm just a shy and insecure little girl deep inside, I think. And worst of all is, that I can't remember what it feels like to be loved by a man.